Friday, June 15, 2007

I want to be blessed

I do.

There was a report some day ago about a church preaching the 'prosperity gospel' in Africa. It's a place with severe poverty and critics say that they are a cult.

Don't you just love it when newspaper write, "...critics say....." @#$#@% (Internet- critics have reportedly more smellier shit than normal ppl and critics of the critics says they also have more shit than normal..... )

Now I'm not saying that this church is a cult or not. They could be, I don't know. But is preaching prosperity in a place of severe poverty bad?

Would it then be bad to preach so that the blind can see? or that the lame can walk? or that the sick can be healthy? So why not the poor shall know no lack? (Someone said, "as if we buay kau suay!" )

Some christians may be shocked by this. What else should the church be preaching? Oh you sinners who are saved, you were blind and now more blinder. You thought you were lame, now you're lamer! muahahahahahah wah you're sick ah? cham liao... sure sicker (I know, I sound like a psycho.. keke )

I just think that many people feel that money and god don't mix. That's wrong. The greed for money and God don't mix as no man can serve 2 masters.

If you still don't believe me then I suggest you stop blessing others.

Yes, stop saying God bless you.

Why? because bless in the NT mostly means - 'eulogeo' - is the original Greek word for 'blessed', meaning favoured of God, to celebrate with praises, consecrate a thing with prayer, to cause to prosper or make happy, to bestow blessings on.

Yup, it's there.. to make prosper and in the blessings from the law. Fu yoh!

So God bless me. Bless my readers. Bless all of us abundantly so that we may know you more - the power of your ressurection, the depths of your love and the wonders of your grace. In Jesus's name I pray.

Amen.

Monday, June 11, 2007

More spirituality

A good friend ask how come you were not in *enter church event* ? It's the best ever and s/he has learnt the most this time.... man you don't know what you missed! Man.

Recently it's the MCCC.

I've no doubt that I probably missed some stuff. Some great stuff too but why should I be there?

I mean, if I don't go would I be less spiritual or would I be more? Would I have grown more godly character if I went? .... during the time of MCCC it was the first time I experience God's healing, a time where I see God answering our prayers for weather. How could any sermon give me the experience I had with God during those 25 hours of climbing up and down. Oh... and the beauty of God's creation - the mountains, clouds.... and the great company! :)

I know that my friends mean well, and they're excited about the stuffs they learn. I know. When I learn something new I get so excited I tell everyone about it and most time shove it down their throats! Which I should have learn by now that it is the WRONG thing to do. hehehe but I still do it... arrghhh!!!!!!

So why should I be there? Unless God tells me to.

Recently there was Taming the Tiger. Many people went and said, "WOW!...." Then what?
I remember I was there during the prophetic conferences.... the many ppl around me when "WOW!..." Then?

Edmund Chan came to DUMC for MCCC a couple of years ago. Then ppl was saying the same thing.. it's the BEST thing! REALLY! ..Har? You didn't go? Wah.. why la.. you should have because.. well I've learnt so much.

Couple years down the road... could we remember what he was teaching?

I'm not saying that we shouldn't go. No. I feel that we should go. In fact go for as much as we can because listening about things of God is great and increases our faith....

But remember what Edmund Chan taught about the story of martha and mary. Mary has chosen the one thing that is needful, it shall not be taken away from her.

I believe we need to find that one thing for us - that place of restedness in Him - and know that we're where God wants us to be. Then Relax. Have some fun then have more. Love.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Miracles in KK

It's been almost one week since we got back from our hike and memories of it is starting to fade... sadly, that's how forgetful I am. Partly because my muscle aches are gone! yay! Partly the busyness of KL has started to creep back into my life!

However, I want to take some time to remember the good things God has done for us in our trip. I wanted to write ALL the good things God has done for us... but that would not be possible because I believe He has done many many many many good things for us and we are only conscious about some of them, perhaps even a small portion of them.

Firstly, we got there in one piece and got back in better shape :)

Secondly, we had a friend in Sabah who was so kind to ferry us around, show us around and bring us to some of the good makan spots :)

Thirdly, the company of friends was great. All of us has our own quirkyness which made the whole team 'colourful'

Then, there was good weather for the 2 days that we climbed Mount KK. See , the guides have been telling us that it has been raining VERY heavily EVERYDAY. When we were decending, the guides were chasing us a little so that we don't have to get caught in the rain. We weren't so worried because God said He'll hold the rain and He did. Just slight drizzle, nothing heavy.

Then, there was my hamstring. I pulled my left hamstring 2/3 weeks before the climb. The doc says 6 weeks to heal. So when I climbed I was careful not to put too much strain on the left leg, turns out my right leg was strained and I pulled my right hamstring on the way down. Same spot somemore. So I claimed His promises that He will heal me - by His stripes I'm healed. The pain subsided and I was able to walk down without any pain! Few days now, still no pain.

Then, the backpacker place we stayed in was very clean, friendly, well equiped and most of all cheap!

Lastly, when I got home I tried to call mom. She didn't answer. Apparently she accidentally cut her wrist - just missing the veins while she was doing some house chores. I was so shocked and worried. She told me calmly later that she's alright already. Doc say the cut just missed the veins a liiiiittttttllllleeee biiiit. Wah. Thank you God for taking care of my mom!

Thank God for a restful, fun, and adventurous holiday!

Monday, June 04, 2007

serene kk

The trip to Mount KK was great :)

We actually made it. It was so great. The trip was super grueling but fun.

For one week, it was serene. The only stress was the never-ending steps in the BEAUTIFUL jungle - without snakes or leeches - good.

The only noise was the faint waterfall in the distant or the chirping of the birds. :) - gooder

We drank water from the mountains - it's sweet, refreshing... like 10000 times better than diamond water. I found out, natural untreated water is very tasty! - very gooder

The scenery at the top is breath taking - very goodest!

Muahahahahaha.. and we did all this while you were working!

We started our hike from Mesilau on Friday morning about 8am at about 2000 meters above sea level. After about 9 hours, at about 5pm we reached Laban Rata at about 3300 meter. During the 9 hours, we saw the vegetation change. We moved from under the clouds to 'inside' to 'above'. When we are 'inside' it seems we were in the enchanted island, very shiok la. Then when we made our way above the clouds, it was so cool. I feel like I can almost jump down to a pillow of cloud cushioning my fall.

We then rested till 130am then we started our climb to the top - Low's Peak. We reached there about 530am just in time for the sunrise. We then made our way down at about 630am ? I dunno because I was very very very very freaking cold. We reached back at Laban Rata at about 1030am, had some food, packed and then head back down to Timpohon at 12pm. We reached at 600pm.

During the trip we ate tonnes of musli bars, sneaker bars and RM33 buffet- wahlau we dunno how to hunt in the jungle ok! The food up there was expensive but I guess no one is complaining. I wasn't because why? I didn't want to run down hill to get nasi lemak for my dinner. The wise thing is to pay and eat. Quote from grace," I don't want to see or eat another musli bar ever again... for a long time la..."

hahahahahahahaha

Monday, May 28, 2007

Everything was going well

until "I" came along.

That's what David says in the next verse:

Psa 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

See from 23:1-3, the context is that "He leads me, He makes.... " It starts from Him. But in verse 4. it starts with "when I walk.

It's like saying, we'll do okay when He leads but when I do the walking...I blow it all away and now I'm in the valley of the shadow of death. Kinda describe to me how screw up we can be.

But it's okay, God is still with us. His rod and His staff they comfort me, not whack me.

Is our perception of God one that will hit us and punish as we make mistakes?

David, who is the man after God's heart says:

He leads me in path of righteousness and even though I walk through shitty times, I fear no evil. Yes I walk and not He leads... I will still fear no evil because God is with me. His rod and staff they comfort me.

God loves us so much!!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

He is not just my Saviour...

He is ALSO my Shepherd.

While I was taking my shower today, feeling happy - as I have been for the last week - I thought about Jesus as my shepherd.

Because He is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. As oppose to He is my saviour I shall not be in want. Shepherd feeds the sheep, He takes care of them. He makes me... He leads me... He restores me. How wonderful.

Psa 23:1 A Psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
Psa 23:2 He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters.
Psa 23:3 He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Then I realiased that in the midst of my 'happy' in the last few days... in the midst of being caught up that goodness and mercy is hunting me, I forgot to follow the shepherd as much as I want to. I haven't heard his voice for a couple of days now. Eric has a short term memory - busy playing!!!

Thank you father for your abundance blessing and your grace. How wonderful it is to hear your voice now.

To you my reader, God is blessing you right now in abundance. Whatever it is you have in your heart, go to him and He'll make things right for you.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Help it's hunting me!

Ahhhh.. God is so good. How good you may say?

So good that goodness will follow me.

Psa 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Actually, that's not accurate. Not accurate by far.

Follow in hebrew means: A primitive root; to run after (usually with hostile intent; figuratively (of time) gone by): - chase, put to flight, follow (after, on), hunt, (be under) persecute (-ion, -or), pursue (-r).

Which make the verse go: Goodness and Mercy shall HUNT ME all the days of life!

Where to hide? Where to run?

muahahahahaha Jesus love me.

You give

Thank you Jesus for making today special.

Today, many of the things that I've been waiting for happen! Hallelujah!

I can't help but to think that it's because God is encouraging me after I learn what I did yesterday.

Indeed, I can do nothing except through Christ. So many nights of worrying, of praying and things just started moving - before my holiday.

So while I'm getting excited about all the work that I have to do, I'm operating slightly different this time. Firstly, I'm starting work with rest. Before even working on the projects, I'm going for my holiday. Jewish day also starts in the evening, rest before work. First day of the week is Sunday, sabbath. I guess I didn't see how God take rest seriously until now when I'm typing this. I remember reading that during the old time, violation of Sabbath is punishable by stoning! Alamak! Jialat man!

Secondly, I figure that if it's God that causes things to happen, then the maxim seems quite true: Things were going great until "I" came along :).

So I'm learning to let go, to let God cause it, to let him change me to a different being. It's like being a pencil before and then transform to a pen. A pen just writes differently from a pencil.... just different.

Sounds like a robot? Hardly. I can't explain it. It's like what paul say...His love compels. Like what the covenant says, He write His laws on my heart..... At the same time, I can do everything. It's so FREE-ing. It's the Goodnews mate. The Gospel.

Thirdly I learn that by the same account that He gave repentance...ie. because I can't do it... He also gave us power to heal, that the lame may walk, the blind may see and walk on water and raise the dead.

Hehehehe... the force is storng in this one. :)

Fourthly, and this is taught to me by wifey. Man is bankrupt. We need to receive from God. Receive it abundantly and easily so that we know how GOOD our God is... only then we know how to give. Else we're just giving on our own strength.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Repentance and Forgiveness of Sin is given

I have been in the pensive mood for the last few days (or weeks). I feel a certain sadness.

Among many things, here is one of the reason. You see, I'm climbing Mount KK in about 2 weeks time and I think my hamstring, which I injured, would not heal completely in time for the climb. Not only that. The workout that I've put myself through, to boost my fitness, is just starting to bear fruit. And now I dare not exercise to much for fear of hurting myself again.

Really, I am just starting to enjoy myself... learning that I can get fitter and strong. I have never been a runner in school and now I am quite happy to jog slowly around kiara park for 5km... really slowly :)

So when I pulled my hamstring a week ago, I was quite anxious to get back to my regime so that I can get real fit. Real fit = easy climb = good time in KK. As I prayed over the healing of my hamstring and whether I should go back to exercise, I sensed in my Spirit not to run but to depend on Him for my KK climb.

I guess I should be quite happy about this - dependence. But really I wasn't completely happy about it. I mean this is my holiday. I should have the pleasure of knowing that I can climb mount KK... I mean I want to experience that satisfaction that I did it. I mean this isn't so hard to understand!

I am wise enough to know that if I 'argue' with God who will emerge the winner. But this hamstring thing is really challenging me. Depend on Him... even for my holilday?

So today I read something in Acts that gave me a glimpse of what I might be learning. In Acts 5:29-32 Peter said,"... that he might give repentence and forgiveness of sins..... "

It kinda shocked me because repentence is also given. It's given meh?

Then I realiase that what Jesus said is true. (duh?!). We can really do no-thing except through him, even repentence. (repentence means change our minds) We can't even change our mind/conviction on our own. This stupid simple 'little' thing called REPENTANCE also we have to depend on Him... sian! sian!

ooi.. but it's God's word. and it's true. and its VERY free-ing. now that I think about it.

He cause the repentance, I just chill out in Him.

So this KK trip I also must depend on him. At first I want to feel that I can achieve something and that I'm 'powerful' enough to control my life (through exercising, planning...etc not that that isn't good, just this is for me, for this season, for this moment.. I'm special you see :) )

Now I'm zero. God you be My Hero la. I just pray that you show up, don't make my hamstring pain again coz last week very siong. Also, let me have fun with my wife and friends. Take care of my business, bless me abundantly.... Yes God, I know I very chiong hei, you said it in scripture already, again and again. But just thought I tell you anyways.

Thank you Jesus for everything.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Inlaws or Outlaws

She drives me nuts sometimes, other times she makes me coffee.

She drives me up the wall, and most time- through the wall, other times she washes my laundry.

She's like a BIG little girl at home, giving excuses for a lot a lot of things.

I'm like a small BIG man bugging, irritating, confronting, challenging her many many times a day.

I can't change her but I can change my thoughts (coincidentally, that's the meaning of repent) so help me God.

Monday, May 21, 2007

How to get a free holiday.

Really, I no blaff you one.

Takes about 3 1/2 hours of work only.

1. Go listen to a time share sales pitch
- Just give your phone number when you stay in hotel, some cheesy promotion... etc etc somehow these ppl will soon find out who you are, your name, your gender and your age. They will then call you.

This part is called telemarketing on their part, to me is called: stop wasting my time, what's the deal here?

2. As a reward to listening their pitch they'll give you a hotel stay at XXX location for one night.
- Not bad. They say the sales pitch will only take 60mins. I don't think so. The REAL sales pitch is when they press you after the pitch after the 60mins. Asking you questions like: What's stopping you? Is money the issue, if yes, then how much can you afford....helping you to see past your 'issues' to get to a 'YES'. So Id say the REAL sales pitch time is 120mins.

Their part now is to bite and don't let go. I call my part here: act blur think smart.

3. As a reward to your strong willed NO and super thick skin :) You now have a free 1 night stay. Don't complain if the room is lousy, service is non-existent.. usually it's not. But if it is... it's free okay!

Why 3 1/2 hours? KL traffic and parking. 1 1/2 hours to get to their office and park and back. 2 hours to listen to pitch :)

This is when u say yay! you got a free stay... now does anyone have any idea how to get free transport to the hotel?

Womanese

Recently I learn that while ALL of us, men, speak English, women speak womanese. hahaha. Yup, they speak womanese. I've been married for 7 months and dated the same woman for 5 years prior to that and I'm just starting to learn this new, bizarre language called womanese.

I think I'm just starting to scratch the surface. Maybe.

Womanese is 'deceiving'. It sounds just like English but its undercurrent, its meaning is completely different. For example when my wife ask me if I love her. I answer: I love you.

3 simple words can mean a whole lot things.

She then ask again, do you love me? I say yes I do love you, very much.

How much?

Obviously, my english teacher didn't teach me well. I don't know the words "I love you" can be used to express the dept of love. I love you is I love you la...

Also, most guys probably don't know this. I love you also has a time factor in it.

In Womanese, I love you, last about 5 secs. That's why sometimes my wife can ask me: Do you love me? ...I love you... Do you love me?.... I love you.... Do you REALLY love me?.......

I think most of my dad's generation seldom tell their woman that they love them. Of course, they said that during the Wedding. "Oooi woman, I tell you already what.. how many time you want me to repeat..... I love you la"

It's not enough to tell them that you love them once a week... coz that was LAST week. Not once a day, coz that was YESTERDAY! you need to tell them constantly. It last for 5 secs. The 'weirdest' part is that this is not because they have short term memory. They don't.. never forget the last time you said "I love you".

Dear... do you love me? You haven't said that you love me for a long time......
huh? long time?..
yeah.... since this morning....

5 seconds, after which the power of "I love you" simply fizzles. no more. void. You have start again.

But I think I'm learning. It's like watering the most beautiful flower the more you say "I love you" the more pretty the flower becomes.

Honey I love you!!!!

Friday, June 16, 2006

TIME is the issue here..

Recently I found out that a good friend of my mine was chosen to play for a music hero of mine.

On one hand I was really happy for him as we played together on several gigs before and I was fully aware that he is a good guitarist... he deserves it! Well done!

On the other, I was dissapointed and went to sulk-mode. I needed to. I needed to know why. What have I done badly? What could I have done better?

So I seek answers... and I've gotten some. Not all things in life are pleasant :) but in this case, they are certainly necessary.

The comments on my playing in a nutshell is that I don't play the right thing at the right time. Sometimes I go out of timing and make things 'messy'....

While that is a problem I can deal with on its own, but as I dig deeper myself, I realised that this issue permeates across my life:-

- to say the right things and do the right stuff with the right people at the right time!

(that's saying, doing, people and time)

worst, I don't do it! or want to do it. I think innately I don't even try! Arrgghhh... It's shameful to admit this. I would love to think that I get the saying and doing part right more than 50% of the time but even then, I think I get the people and timing part wrong most of the time.

At the moment, I don't know the consequence of my actions (or inactions). On major aspect I feel is the lost of 'gravitas' or 'leadership'. I'm not sure...

I'm praying and learning now... from zero. Will update.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Pyromaniac? Sadist?... I love animals what!

Coolcat asked me to comment on this entry. and I will :)

I don't think I'm a pyro-phobic. I'm not a pyromaniac too but I do enjoy burning things up occasionally.

I have tried to burn my hair when I was younger. Nothing too scary. It burns fast. then dies.

I haven't burn things for a long time until last month when I found snails in my aquarium - EATING my PLANTS!

How can man?! My lovely plants!

So I bought pufferfish that would eat them. And since they were about to die anyway I thought to have some fun with them. I caught one of the snails and put it on a piece of paper and lit it up. 1 min later, the fire engulf the snail and then.. **** blooop ****. A faint explosion signifying the end of miserable snail's life. muahahahaha! The snail's shell exploded into a thousand fragments. It was fun I guess, but too short lived...

If you have garden snails, you can put salt on the snail and see it melt (but this won't work on aquarium snails) which is certainly more fun to watch as it last like 30mins.... I'm sick I know.

Speaking of which, ants and mosquitos last a LONG time without their limbs....

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Engine Oil

Got reminded today... prayer is my engine oil

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Music & Kings

I went to Jakarta last week on a business trip.

Met this funny-wise man. We are both passionate about our music and that made for much conversation topics. Knowing my busy schedules he told me not to leave my music behind and added:

David became musician 1st then king... not the other way around... remember that!

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now who am I to argue with that?!

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Maggie Mee

Last night I was pooped out from my days work.

So we went to watch ice age 2. It was okay-la....

But what was even better when Liping made Asam Laksa Maggie for me. She makes the best maggie! I'm very biased. :)

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

some updates:

Hey there,

I'm doing well. Thanks for asking! How are things with you? Anything new? What are you busy with these days and what are you looking forward to?

Suddenly, I feel like typing.. so here goes! lol

Besides being busy with wedding plans and the biz, there is little time for music practice. I feel that I've been deproving for the past few months after the busy period of December. All those motor skills gone!

I've got a gig this weekend for CCM with Liang and Jac and I find myself practicing with my old friend- the metronome. Shucks. I'm planning to keep it simple and tight. But I hope I practice on a more regular basis, I feel very discourage when I don't improve... or maybe playing the same lines over and over and over again bores the heck of of me, or maybe I feel that stagnation of skills isn't worshiping Him (in eph, it says play with all your skills!). One thing still stays the same, playing music make me happy. It's weird. I'm weird.

In this year, I hope I'll be able to train up my ears a bit more. Learn more transcription skills. I'm a hopeless case in that! Oh btw, I've been experimenting on the minor harmonic scale. Sounds awesome.. hehehe.. if only I can get my fingers to move now...

On other stuff, it's pretty exciting. I have no experience in getting married so.... :P You dating anyone? You're not young anymore too!

On work, super stressful. But I love it... and love is not a 'feeling' word, it's an action word! ahahaha.. I'm getting so much white hair these days. Recently, I'm in the mission to tell those I see who don't enjoy their work to realised that we spent the majority of our waking hours in work. "Church" happens more in our office more than in 'ministry'.

As for cars.... arrggh I was eying the Honda City! hahaha sleek, not too expensive rm70k+ and very good on fuel consumption. So what do I do? I try to make some money and pray! But God seems to be saying no! arrgh. I'll keep praying. For now, it's the kancil and the bug. Have you got your Satria yet?

Okay you take care now.

Eric

Monday, March 27, 2006

Problems organising camps?

Hi there,

Organising a camp can sometimes be tough. Small meager budgets, demanding campers, high expectations for food and 'quality' tshirts. Satisfying all needs is as much a pain as the organising itself!!

Allow Johnny to the rescue- vely fierceZZZ, Johnny do Bestz!

You can now zhng your camp

http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/03/zhng_my_camp.html

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

We're gathered here today to remember...

... GIGS (of emails... 3 yrs worth)

bytes to bytes
gigs to gigs
we hereby say our farewell to the many gigs that has been lost in this terrible tragedy today
the words in the gigs has shown me that tho they are no more,
their meanings are still here to stay
their purpose we remember.

I will certainly miss you, Gigs of Email (son of Thunderbird)